Forbidden love

So, there's this guy i like

a lot

and he's probably reading this,

 well maybe not

we can't really be together

not now at least,

i wish life wasn't so complicated

i wish there was just peace

kk that wasn't supossed to be a poem but it kinda worked out that way. LOL. So yeah, I'm sorry David if this is driving you insane, but Travis doesn't care about me anymore so I'm over it. For Now. I really this guy i was telling y'all about. Besides being ridiculously good looking he's really nice like reallyy nice. And he's funny. So yeah But appearantly we cant really have a relationship which kinda sucks. A LOT but idk maybe we will lol. Haha i get kinda nervous thinking about it not going to lie. You all know my luck with boys....so anyways on a lighter note. I got my dress for RJI today(RJI will be explained in another blog...quick synopsis: a convention for my youth group...there is a semi formal dance). So yeah anyways i was trying on my dress spinning around the dressroom and i spun into a wall lmao. And i walked into a mannequin and apologized lol. Yeah so fun day.

Happy MLK day

~A man who won't die for something is not fit to live. ~ Martin Luther King Jr.

<3

Love

5 months is a really really long time to wait for someone you love. 

But if you're sure you love them, it's worth the wait.

Last night, i admitted to someone I loved them. And it wasn't crazy teenage love, we are old enough to know if we love someone and basically the conversation went like this:

Me; no plans with anyone tonight?
Travis: nope i will enjoy the peace though
Me;Okay i just wanted to make sure i wasn't bothering you...i never know anymore
Travis: come here
Me: why? I mean i would love to see Mr stokes and be made fun of by chase but you ARE happy without me
Travis: I wouldn't mind laying in your lap again
Me: i wouldnt mind doing anything with you again but you have a girlfriend and you are happy anad i have to keep telling mysef that
Travis: youre crazy
Me:what it's true, aren't you perfectly happy?
Travis:No i want to see you again and that is that
Me: But do you still want me?
Travis: yea, yea i do
Me: Travis...
Travis: yes
Me: I think i'm in love with you and i'm really sorry
Travis: Why are you sorry
Me: Because it's wrong
Travis: Love is wrong?
Me: onviously and you know what it took me 5 months for me to tell you that
Travis: I will see you again, it will be amazing. I can't wait its gonna b perfect
Me: come here
Travis: i said i would, trust me
Me: always have, always will
Travis: goodnight pretty girl
Me: goodnight xo

and it made me really happy =]

even though he didn't say it back i knew he wouldn't

anyways i have a huge history test to study for, it's just been a while and i wanted to update y'all

~It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.~Samuel Butler (1835 - 1902), The Way of All Flesh, Chapter 77