Love

5 months is a really really long time to wait for someone you love. 

But if you're sure you love them, it's worth the wait.

Last night, i admitted to someone I loved them. And it wasn't crazy teenage love, we are old enough to know if we love someone and basically the conversation went like this:

Me; no plans with anyone tonight?
Travis: nope i will enjoy the peace though
Me;Okay i just wanted to make sure i wasn't bothering you...i never know anymore
Travis: come here
Me: why? I mean i would love to see Mr stokes and be made fun of by chase but you ARE happy without me
Travis: I wouldn't mind laying in your lap again
Me: i wouldnt mind doing anything with you again but you have a girlfriend and you are happy anad i have to keep telling mysef that
Travis: youre crazy
Me:what it's true, aren't you perfectly happy?
Travis:No i want to see you again and that is that
Me: But do you still want me?
Travis: yea, yea i do
Me: Travis...
Travis: yes
Me: I think i'm in love with you and i'm really sorry
Travis: Why are you sorry
Me: Because it's wrong
Travis: Love is wrong?
Me: onviously and you know what it took me 5 months for me to tell you that
Travis: I will see you again, it will be amazing. I can't wait its gonna b perfect
Me: come here
Travis: i said i would, trust me
Me: always have, always will
Travis: goodnight pretty girl
Me: goodnight xo

and it made me really happy =]

even though he didn't say it back i knew he wouldn't

anyways i have a huge history test to study for, it's just been a while and i wanted to update y'all

~It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.~Samuel Butler (1835 - 1902), The Way of All Flesh, Chapter 77